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| NO ONE'S GONNA CRACK MY SKULL AGAIN
Ohgosh, Xanga, I have been so busy all summer and it's been a fabulous one because of it.
I've been working at Market District but they haven't had many hours so I've been hired to work at a campus coffee shop. I haven't started yet or done my training even though I was technically hired a month ago. I'm getting nervous about the lack of response to my e-mails. The real work schedule is supposed to start in only a couple weeks. I want to know my schedule as soon as possible and get the training out of the way before September gets a whole lot busier for me.
I last wrote before Moira and I even went to Plan-It-X Fest! I loved Bloomington and it's a great place to just walk around and explore with lots of great vegan-friendly restaurants and interesting, friendly people. The fest itself was phenomenal and I can't believe we hadn't gone before! I'm definitely going next year and hope that my fest buddy will come along because we always have a great time together (even though I was cranky the morning we left Columbus, sorry!). I fell in love a thousand times and met a few new people and saw a few old people and after-the-fact made several friends online that I can meet up with at future events, yea! Our hotel was way better than Berea last year and the weather was perfect and all the bands that performed were fantastic and I discovered some new music and finally saw some old favorites play (such as Andrew Jackson Jihad and Best Friends Forever). Superb weekend.
July I went with Kavin to Berea Fest which was strange compared to PIX and last year's Berea. There were a lot of feminist punk bands I liked but most other acts I'd have liked to have seen weren't there and there were hardly any people attending I knew other than a few scattered friends from tumblr, haha. Kavin, his friend Kip and I stayed over at my tumblr friend Mikey's hotel room with his friend Chris and Kip gave Kavin a satanist kitty stick 'n poke tattoo with the kit I put together. I couldn't do it and I think have decided against stick 'n pokes altogether. I just really like the idea of a friend giving you a tattoo and giving it extra meaning. Maybe I could have friends help design tattoos and leave the inking process to the professionals. Or, you know, teach my friends to use a pro gun.
The big August event was my week in Seattle. I got to see almost everyone I wanted to (Kyle Conner wasn't answering phone calls and Kyle McCurdy's plans changed and he wasn't in the area, booo!!). I stayed two nights at Joel's (though he was busy at a video game convention), two nights at Angela and Aram's, and two nights with Bob and Ariel. I destroyed my feet walking eight hours around Capitol Hill and downtown my first full day and had to deal with aggressively painful blisters the rest of the week. Bob and Ariel came with me to the aquarium (!!!) my last full day and it was spectacular, a really excellent aquarium that had both an octopus and a tank of several dwarf cuttlefish. Amazing. I also went to Left Bank and bought a comic and some zines I haven't read yet.
I've been reading more zines to see if it gives me any ideas working on my own. I've been asking people for stories of heartbreak, loss, and disappointment and then I draw them as comics. I have nineteen drawn now, three more waiting to be drawn, and I want to get around thirty or so before I put together the finished product. I may start working on making final drafts on these already-drawn ones so that I'll be on top of it once I get to the later ones (if I get enough, ack!). That might be my main concern - getting as many stories as I want. And working out drawing with not-pencil so that the cartoons come out how I want. I'm hoping black colored pencil will be bold enough but have yet to experiment.
I don't really talk to Shawn at all anymore because everything about him disgusts me any more. He bailed on all of our plans because I would tell him I didn't want to fool around and he'd get pissed off. I have absolutely zero interest in a purely physical relationship right now, especially not with someone who has been so horrible to me. At least his asshole nature after the break-up has made getting over him incredibly easy. I don't think it took long at all and I've been interested in multiple people since and am hoping to someday find someone worth working for (possibly sooner than later!).
I suppose that's enough of a quick summary update for future-me, but maybe future-me will start remembering all the important events on her own.
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| I SAID YOU SHOULDN'T MAKE FACTS OUT OF OPINIONS
Feb 2009 - septum
June 2009 - first lobes
Sept 2009 - second lobes
Sept 2010 - third lobes
Feb 2011 - rook, tragus
June 2011 - nostril, daith
I've seen Shawn twice since we broke up, but I don't know where we stand. We're not getting back together but I still want him to get better and and be happy and not hurt himself or other people like this anymore. Hope he's okay.
So glad that school is out for the summer, though fall won't be exactly the schedule or set-up I wanted since I have to take Spanish at OSU during the evenings instead of CSCC online, since it's two classes in one as a review plus new material. I'd prefer to take just three classes since I work at the same time, but I suppose I will force myself through four. Just a quarter, right?
oh and I dyed my hair blonde after I bleached it and I buzzed almost half my head and yeah lookin fly for summer
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| EVERYTHING SUCKS
(AND YOU KNOW IT)
I just finished my last final today and I am free for the summer for the first time. I don't really know what to do with myself already and it's only been three hours. Bored out of my skull and anxious and .. I don't know. It's been three weeks since I last saw Shawn and today was supposed to be the first time we'd see each other in person but he suddenly changed his mind and decided I wasn't worth the effort. Just keeps reinforcing my theory that he never cared in the first place. Feel like shit instead of celebrating.
I'm so angry I could burst.
uhm, work has been shitty and I am disrespected and somehow blamed for the lack of available hours for the department even though my hours keep getting cut while everyone else gets a steady schedule because they can commit to a full-time position
I bleached my hair on the way to making it turquoise and might keep it blonde for a while first
Moira's home and that's been really great though she's had a rough time taking care of the rabbit she's babysitting for the summer who is really sick and sad.
i feel so stupid and there is nothing i can do
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| JUST ONE MORE BEER
[GO TO WORK, PAY YOUR BILLS, EAT A DICK]
JUST ONE MORE BEER THEN GROW UP
"your the best thing to ever happen to me ever"
but not good enough to help you
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| I'VE GOT YOUR LETTER, YOU'VE GOT MY SONG
I am currently trying one last-ditch effort to restore my saved schoolwork from my oh-so-shitty-and-already-broken-beyond-reasonable-repair 6wk old Toshiba laptop. All of a sudden it started crashing doing normal things (i.e. internet browsing and AIM) yesterday and eventually quit starting at all. After trying several suggestions from tech support yesterday afternoon, the representative said that it was no good and I would need to either send in the computer (this horrible demon piece of shit that I hated even before it crashed) for "a few weeks" to be repaired or call back tomorrow (today) to talk to someone who could authorize shipping me a brand new replacement. I called back today, stayed on hold for over a half-hour and even the elevator music had stopped before I quit and decided to try a few more things. I have two different versions of Windows 7 on System Repair discs but neither of them seem to be getting through. I just started the second one though so there's a chance it'll pick up eventually... I either want my files back or I want a brand new computer I can sell and replace with a new Dell. Ideally, I would get my files back and then still try to get a new computer. I do not want to be stuck with this one anymore. I hate it I hate it I hate it and I hate it more and more every day.
Typing from my 3yr-old Dell that runs better than my 6wk-old Toshiba even though it is physically cracking and falling apart, I really just want to go back to this. Just, one that has a screen firmly attached and with a real battery life and maybe even some processor and memory speed improvements. I may go for a nice red one at Best Buy for $549, twenty bucks more than I paid for the Toshiba and probably $50+ more than I could sell another Toshiba for, but the loss is likely worth it.
Most of my information is backed up but I haven't been taking notes on paper for any of my classes the past few weeks and I am not doing well in any of these classes to say the least. I try my best but my studying doesn't help me (the exams never cover what the study guides say they will or what I thought would be important) and now I have lost all my notes. I can't focus and I am a mess and I wish it would stop fucking raining every goddamn day. I'm in an incessantly bad mood and I have a cold and I wish everything could be easy and simple. Maybe in the summer.
OH, THIS DISC HAS GOTTEN FURTHER THAN THE LAST. This time I have gotten to choose a language for the system repair! Hopefully this means access to my files to back-up before everything crashes again! Cross your fingers, dear readers.
Fingers crossed failed. I got through all the steps only to discover that the stupid Toshiba had not been making regular system restore points so I had nothing to work with. Even worse, I couldn't even get to the reformat screen again to delete all my data. Even worse-r, I finally got to talk to a case manager at Toshiba who told me I was given wrong information and they will tinker with it for two weeks and only give me a new replacement if they can't fix it by then. I don't want it fixed, I want it gone. However, eBay's lowest priced Satellite L655D-S5159 is priced at about what I paid for mine. There's a chance someone would buy a very slightly used one, right? Augh. I just want a new Dell that won't hate me and will do what I want. I've given up on recovering all my class notes. I really should have spent the last four-and-a-half hours on taking notes and reading textbooks to catch up. :/ And now I have no energy or stomach for that. I can't do it. Awful.
I meant to catch up more, but I need to relax for a while. Uhm, quick updates. Take Back the Night with WARR was really great and I felt so fucking good afterward. I think I am making some friends in the group (I hope so!). I caught a cold spending 6hrs in the rain for TBTN though, augh. Easter was full of candy. My mom and I saw Mary Poppins and it was just bizarre. We are planning a trip to Chicago this summer and we might see Beauty and the Beast there. Celia and I have tickets for the circus in two weeks, heckyea! I am not doing as well as I had hoped in school. Shawn and I have been fighting but I am hoping for improvements soon, seeing as we may have had a breakthrough. I can't wait for Moira to come home. Scout hasn't been biting me.
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